3AM

Thinking. Of how we became what we are.  Of how hard I fell, despite how hard I fought.  Of the love that made me feel like I was all that mattered. Thinking.  Of the lie that changed it all and the words we can’t take back.  Of weeks turned to months, that turned lovers into […]

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How I Heal

I cry, I question, I wallow. I’m okay. I lie awake, I dwell on it, I write it down. I’m okay. I move like it doesn’t matter, while the hurt weighs me down. Then I do it all again, like a song on repeat. Until suddenly I realize…I’m okay.  

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A Cluttered Mind/If I Had the Time

So many things to throw away.  Things I never needed, but collected like a hoarder. Loss, panic, worry, pieces of a broken heart.  The stress of making sure everyone around me is okay, while I fall apart.  The frustration of trying to be patient with baby steps, when I’m so ready to soar.  So many […]

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WHAT SHE SAW

Day after day, she blocked the voices saying “no” and “can’t.”  She looked for the motivation to take another step toward the life she truly desired.  All the while feeling that no matter how hard she tried, her efforts would never be realized.  Still, day after day, she stayed determined despite the doubt.   Because night […]

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CRAVINGS

I want you to know how much I loved you.  And how hard I fought to save you.   Everyone tells me how strong I am, but I’ve never felt so weak.  How do I keep from breaking down when I see a mother holding her child? Or when the cravings make me smile and touch […]

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EYES WIDE OPEN

It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before, but I recognize it instantly.  It envelopes me.  A gaze that caresses my soul. Fingertips that graze my arm and light every dark corner inside.  There are never any words. Still, we always know. I fight it with everything I have, because I know it will be my […]

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